HOW I LOST EVERYTHING
PART ONE: THE BLESSING
While walking with my biological father, Evangelist Gyang Luke Dung to the road to get a bus to the studio, the words & melody for this song started to come to me.
This was in 1995.
My birth father passed away in 2005.
Before his passing, he commended me into the Hands of the Most High.
He blessed me with a curse, or, he cursed me with a blessing, and this is it:
He said, “in this life, you will NEVER succeed outside God.”
I will be forever grateful for that condition He set for me.
Now with all these things, I still went prodigal. Here’s the story:
PART TWO: GOING PRODIGAL AND THE CURSE
In 2004, God blessed me with a beautiful album, Na Ba Ka!.
In 2005 I signed a ground breaking deal against my father’s advice. This marriage assumed control of my first born child, Na Ba Ka!. Unbeknownst to me, this choice I made was going to end my career as a successful musician, much like a candle in the wind. I presumptuously thought the industry had the morality espoused in the scriptures. How wrong I was!
As a servant of the Most High, lost in a world where I was looking for the treasures that Christ rejected, I started to cast my pearls to the swine, sacrificing what belonged to God, to Satan. All the children that God gave me, I sacrificed them to demons.
The deal I signed was highly promising. The single condition was to bow down in worship, and I was going to receive access and power along with all the kingdoms of the world, and to make me become like God. The tree was really good for food, and that it was pleasant to the eyes, and a tree to be desired to make one wise.
“The words of his mouth were smoother than butter, but war was in his heart: his words were softer than oil, yet were they drawn swords.”
— Psalms 55:21 (KJV)
My desire, lust, and ambition blinded me. I forgot that I was already made in the image of God, hence I already was godlike, and didn’t need to answer the seductive call. Through discontentment, I despised the words of Christ, and the gifts of God. Na Ba Ka was already perfect when it came out in 2004, but that tree was too tempting.
1 Timothy 6 (KJV)
⁸ And having food and raiment let us be therewith content.
⁹ But they that will be rich fall into temptation and a snare, and into many foolish and hurtful lusts, which drown men in destruction and perdition.
¹⁰ For the love of money is the root of all evil: which while some coveted after, they have erred from the faith, and pierced themselves through with many sorrows.
¹¹ But thou, O man of God, flee these things; and follow after righteousness, godliness, faith, love, patience, meekness.
I took an already complete, award winning album, and sacrificed it to Satan, then I didn’t keep my part of the contract. As righteous indignation kicked in, I started to question the morals of the my principals. This is very similar to a woman who gets married with the hopes that she can change her husband after, or vice versa. This is the decision I made that took away everything I had from me. I thought my loss would only end in Na Ba Ka, but no. I lost the entire garden of Eden!
Ezekiel 16 (KJV)
¹⁵ But thou didst trust in thine own beauty, and playedst the harlot because of thy renown, and pouredst out thy fornications on every one that passed by; his it was.
¹⁶ And of thy garments thou didst take, and deckedst thy high places with divers colours, and playedst the harlot thereupon: the like things shall not come, neither shall it be so.
¹⁷ Thou hast also taken thy fair jewels of my gold and of my silver, which I had given thee, and madest to thyself images of men, and didst commit whoredom with them,
¹⁸ And tookest thy broidered garments, and coveredst them: and thou hast set mine oil and mine incense before them.
¹⁹ My meat also which I gave thee, fine flour, and oil, and honey, wherewith I fed thee, thou hast even set it before them for a sweet savour: and thus it was, saith the Lord GOD.
All the energy I needed to move on was channeled away from me, and was harnessed to build a machine that would be the constant source of pain for my brethren who are also blinded with ambition, as it is this day.
“For what is a man profited, if he shall gain the whole world, and lose his own soul? or what shall a man give in exchange for his soul?”
— Matthew 16:26 (KJV)
“There is a way which seemeth right unto a man, but the end thereof are the ways of death.”
— Proverbs 14:12 (KJV)
The world I desired to conquer, became my conqueror. I became a byword and a proverb in my communities, no one would hear my side of the story, because the power of the rich makes their voice louder. I became the punchline of many jokes.
“And thou shalt be brought down, and shalt speak out of the ground, and thy speech shall be low out of the dust, and thy voice shall be, as of one that hath a familiar spirit, out of the ground, and thy speech shall whisper out of the dust.”
— Isaiah 29:4 (KJV)
Psalms 22 (KJV)
⁶ But I am a worm, and no man; a reproach of men, and despised of the people.
⁷ All they that see me laugh me to scorn: they shoot out the lip, they shake the head…
This decision stripped me of my dignity and my honour. When I refused to continue to eat from that tree, the barley and the wine ceased. The promise failed. I became a whitewashed tomb, with product online selling, but never receiving anything in proceeds. My praises were being posthumously sung, from the vantage point of a fallen hero. People would speak about me as though I was already dead!
Proverbs 11 (KJV)
²⁰ They that are of a froward heart are abomination to the LORD: but such as are upright in their way are his delight.
²¹ Though hand join in hand, the wicked shall not be unpunished: but the seed of the righteous shall be delivered.
“Let no man say when he is tempted, I am tempted of God: for God cannot be tempted with evil, neither tempteth he any man:”
— James 1:13 (KJV)
“But every man is tempted, when he is drawn away of his own lust, and enticed.”
— James 1:14 (KJV)
“Then when lust hath conceived, it bringeth forth sin: and sin, when it is finished, bringeth forth death.”
— James 1:15 (KJV)
PART THREE: MY CHILDREN
Now because of my agreement with that system, the children that God gave me believed in the system. I watched to my dismay how Satan turned the whole narrative upside down before me. He set me up as an example of disloyalty to the sons that God gave me, which I sold to Satan.
Ezekiel 16 (KJV)
²⁰ Moreover thou hast taken thy sons and thy daughters, whom thou hast borne unto me, and these hast thou sacrificed unto them to be devoured. Is this of thy whoredoms a small matter,
²¹ That thou hast slain my children, and delivered them to cause them to pass through the fire for them?
³⁶ Thus saith the Lord GOD; Because thy filthiness was poured out, and thy nakedness discovered through thy whoredoms with thy lovers, and with all the idols of thy abominations, and by the blood of thy children, which thou didst give unto them;
³⁷ Behold, therefore I will gather all thy lovers, with whom thou hast taken pleasure, and all them that thou hast loved, with all them that thou hast hated; I will even gather them round about against thee, and will discover thy nakedness unto them, that they may see all thy nakedness.
“And judgment is turned away backward, and justice standeth afar off: for truth is fallen in the street, and equity cannot enter.”
— Isaiah 59:14 (KJV)
“Yea, truth faileth; and he that departeth from evil maketh himself a prey: and the LORD saw it, and it displeased him that there was no judgment.”
— Isaiah 59:15 (KJV)
Isaiah 32 (KJV)
⁶ For the vile person will speak villany, and his heart will work iniquity, to practise hypocrisy, and to utter error against the LORD, to make empty the soul of the hungry, and he will cause the drink of the thirsty to fail.
⁷ The instruments also of the churl are evil: he deviseth wicked devices to destroy the poor with lying words, even when the needy speaketh right.
I watched them with my children rise to power, blinded by their own ambitions while I was on my decline. What could I say? They praised me in public, but their works towards me were despiteful. They understood that helping me could be deemed disloyalty and treasonous. They couldn’t help! Their judgement was in favour of their new masters.
Psalms 12 (KJV)
¹ Help, LORD; for the godly man ceaseth; for the faithful fail from among the children of men.
² They speak vanity every one with his neighbour: with flattering lips and with a double heart do they speak.
³ The LORD shall cut off all flattering lips, and the tongue that speaketh proud things:
⁴ Who have said, With our tongue will we prevail; our lips are our own: who is lord over us?
⁵ For the oppression of the poor, for the sighing of the needy, now will I arise, saith the LORD; I will set him in safety from him that puffeth at him.
⁶ The words of the LORD are pure words: as silver tried in a furnace of earth, purified seven times.
⁷ Thou shalt keep them, O LORD, thou shalt preserve them from this generation for ever.
⁸ The wicked walk on every side, when the vilest men are exalted.
PART FOUR: THE CHURCHES
DISCLAIMER: This is my position concerning the church. There are good churches, and there are good pastors. They are few, and far in between.
Matthew 24 (KJV)
⁴ And Jesus answered and said unto them, Take heed that no man deceive you.
⁵ For many shall come in my name, saying, I am Christ; and shall deceive many.
Matthew 7 (KJV)
¹³ Enter ye in at the strait gate: for wide is the gate, and broad is the way, that leadeth to destruction, and many there be which go in thereat:
¹⁴ Because strait is the gate, and narrow is the way, which leadeth unto life, and few there be that find it.
¹⁵ Beware of false prophets, which come to you in sheep’s clothing, but inwardly they are ravening wolves.
¹⁶ Ye shall know them by their fruits. Do men gather grapes of thorns, or figs of thistles?
¹⁷ Even so every good tree bringeth forth good fruit; but a corrupt tree bringeth forth evil fruit.
¹⁸ A good tree cannot bring forth evil fruit, neither can a corrupt tree bring forth good fruit.
¹⁹ Every tree that bringeth not forth good fruit is hewn down, and cast into the fire.
²⁰ Wherefore by their fruits ye shall know them.
²¹ Not every one that saith unto me, Lord, Lord, shall enter into the kingdom of heaven; but he that doeth the will of my Father which is in heaven.
²² Many will say to me in that day, Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in thy name? and in thy name have cast out devils? and in thy name done many wonderful works?
²³ And then will I profess unto them, I never knew you: depart from me, ye that work iniquity.
²⁴ Therefore whosoever heareth these sayings of mine, and doeth them, I will liken him unto a wise man, which built his house upon a rock:
²⁵ And the rain descended, and the floods came, and the winds blew, and beat upon that house; and it fell not: for it was founded upon a rock.
²⁶ And every one that heareth these sayings of mine, and doeth them not, shall be likened unto a foolish man, which built his house upon the sand:
²⁷ And the rain descended, and the floods came, and the winds blew, and beat upon that house; and it fell: and great was the fall of it.
BACK TO MY STORY: I went to dine with the devil a young prophet, I came back empty, robbed, and spoiled, with a broken spirit. I lived for years in perplexity, constant depression, and every kind of confusion with no one to comfort me. I, in the mindset of sheep had been configured to believe that everything that’s said in the media, and on pulpits was the truth. I therefore constantly measured myself by the societal standards. I was always found wanting.
“Do they provoke me to anger? saith the LORD: do they not provoke themselves to the confusion of their own faces?”
— Jeremiah 7:19 (KJV)
Isaiah 30 (KJV)
¹ Woe to the rebellious children, saith the LORD, that take counsel, but not of me; and that cover with a covering, but not of my spirit, that they may add sin to sin:
² That walk to go down into Egypt, and have not asked at my mouth; to strengthen themselves in the strength of Pharaoh, and to trust in the shadow of Egypt!
³ Therefore shall the strength of Pharaoh be your shame, and the trust in the shadow of Egypt your confusion.
⁷ For the Egyptians shall help in vain, and to no purpose: therefore have I cried concerning this, Their strength is to sit still.
“And their dead bodies shall lie in the street of the great city, which spiritually is called Sodom and Egypt, where also our Lord was crucified.”
— Revelation 11:8 (KJV)
I trusted in those systems. Also in the spirit of a prodigal son, I started to open up to different pastors to help me, but they couldn’t. Retrospectively, I realise that they didn’t understand my problem, so they couldn’t help. In fact, some of them took advantage of my pain. I started to go from mountain to hill, I had forgotten my resting place.
Jeremiah 17 (KJV)
⁵ Thus saith the LORD; Cursed be the man that trusteth in man, and maketh flesh his arm, and whose heart departeth from the LORD.
⁶ For he shall be like the heath in the desert, and shall not see when good cometh; but shall inhabit the parched places in the wilderness, in a salt land and not inhabited.
I started to see many churches on the increase maligned me, for every one error I made, and errors that I didn’t make they brought out arms and artillery with their arrows and continued to shoot their wounded soldier for years, also with idol shepherds profiteering from my blindness, and my brethren following after them. I was constantly drained with no replenishment.
Jeremiah 50 (KJV)
⁶ My people hath been lost sheep: their shepherds have caused them to go astray, they have turned them away on the mountains: they have gone from mountain to hill, they have forgotten their restingplace.
⁷ All that found them have devoured them: and their adversaries said, We offend not, because they have sinned against the LORD, the habitation of justice, even the LORD, the hope of their fathers.
PART FIVE: HOPE, REPENTANCE, AND RESTORATION
Brethren, spiritually, I became dead. I became numb. I was living in constant fear, and permanently lost in sin. I had resigned to drugs and women to fill that void. Spiritually I became a desolate wasteland, but while in it, I didn’t realise it!
Jeremiah 30 (KJV)
¹² For thus saith the LORD, Thy bruise is incurable, and thy wound is grievous.
¹³ There is none to plead thy cause, that thou mayest be bound up: thou hast no healing medicines.
¹⁴ All thy lovers have forgotten thee; they seek thee not; for I have wounded thee with the wound of an enemy, with the chastisement of a cruel one, for the multitude of thine iniquity; because thy sins were increased.
¹⁵ Why criest thou for thine affliction? thy sorrow is incurable for the multitude of thine iniquity: because thy sins were increased, I have done these things unto thee.
¹⁶ Therefore all they that devour thee shall be devoured; and all thine adversaries, every one of them, shall go into captivity; and they that spoil thee shall be a spoil, and all that prey upon thee will I give for a prey.
¹⁷ For I will restore health unto thee, and I will heal thee of thy wounds, saith the LORD; because they called thee an Outcast, saying, This is Zion, whom no man seeketh after.
SIN. THAT WAS MY PROBLEM.
In 2015, there was a cataclysm that changed my life. The scales started to fall off, my eyes opened, then suddenly I started to see that I was dead. I started to realise that I was wearing filthy garments, lain lifeless in a valley of dry bones. Then, I started to say: Woe is me!!!
God reminded me of my father, His servant, who worked with Baba Paul Gindiri. God started to remind me of His words, and God started to comfort me in His word.
Scriptures started to come alive. God INDEED CANNOT be mocked. I brought it all upon myself. I was only reaping what I had sown, but God didn’t recompense me fully according to my works. He dealt with me with mercies.
“Say ye to the righteous, that it shall be well with him: for they shall eat the fruit of their doings.”
— Isaiah 3:10 (KJV)
“Woe unto the wicked! it shall be ill with him: for the reward of his hands shall be given him.”
— Isaiah 3:11 (KJV)
“He will not always chide: neither will he keep his anger for ever.”
— Psalms 103:9 (KJV)
“He hath not dealt with us after our sins; nor rewarded us according to our iniquities.”
— Psalms 103:10 (KJV)
“For as the heaven is high above the earth, so great is his mercy toward them that fear him.”
— Psalms 103:11 (KJV)
“And after all that is come upon us for our evil deeds, and for our great trespass, seeing that thou our God hast punished us less than our iniquities deserve, and hast given us such deliverance as this;”
— Ezra 9:13 (KJV)
“Should we again break thy commandments, and join in affinity with the people of these abominations? wouldest not thou be angry with us till thou hadst consumed us, so that there should be no remnant nor escaping?”
— Ezra 9:14 (KJV)
“O LORD God of Israel, thou art righteous: for we remain yet escaped, as it is this day: behold, we are before thee in our trespasses: for we cannot stand before thee because of this.”
— Ezra 9:15 (KJV)
Here’s my biggest lesson in this. If I had taken heed to my father’s instructions, if I had retained his words in my heart and not felt like I could counsel him, this story would be different.
Proverbs 2 (KJV)
¹ My son, if thou wilt receive my words, and hide my commandments with thee;
² So that thou incline thine ear unto wisdom, and apply thine heart to understanding;
Proverbs 3 (KJV)
¹ My son, forget not my law; but let thine heart keep my commandments:
² For length of days, and long life, and peace, shall they add to thee.
Proverbs 4 (KJV)
¹ Hear, ye children, the instruction of a father, and attend to know understanding.
² For I give you good doctrine, forsake ye not my law.
³ For I was my father’s son, tender and only beloved in the sight of my mother.
⁴ He taught me also, and said unto me, Let thine heart retain my words: keep my commandments, and live.
⁵ Get wisdom, get understanding: forget it not; neither decline from the words of my mouth.
⁶ Forsake her not, and she shall preserve thee: love her, and she shall keep thee.
⁷ Wisdom is the principal thing; therefore get wisdom: and with all thy getting get understanding.
Proverbs 5 (KJV)
¹ My son, attend unto my wisdom, and bow thine ear to my understanding:
² That thou mayest regard discretion, and that thy lips may keep knowledge.
Proverbs 7 (KJV)
¹ My son, keep my words, and lay up my commandments with thee.
² Keep my commandments, and live; and my law as the apple of thine eye.
³ Bind them upon thy fingers, write them upon the table of thine heart.
PART SIX: CONCLUSION
GOD ESTABLISHED FATHERHOOD.
- If we don’t reestablish fatherhood, the curse on our land will never cease.
Malachi 4 (KJV)
⁴ Remember ye the law of Moses my servant, which I commanded unto him in Horeb for all Israel, with the statutes and judgments.
⁵ Behold, I will send you Elijah the prophet before the coming of the great and dreadful day of the LORD:
⁶ And he shall turn the heart of the fathers to the children, and the heart of the children to their fathers, lest I come and smite the earth with a curse.
- If you don’t honour your parents, you will cut your life short. You will fail in life. Your sins God will remember.
“Honour thy father and thy mother: that thy days may be long upon the land which the LORD thy God giveth thee.”
— Exodus 20:12 (KJV)
- If you don’t honour your parents, you CANNOT honour God.
Mark 7 (KJV)
¹⁰ For Moses said, Honour thy father and thy mother; and, Whoso curseth father or mother, let him die the death:
¹¹ But ye say, If a man shall say to his father or mother, It is Corban, that is to say, a gift, by whatsoever thou mightest be profited by me; he shall be free.
¹² And ye suffer him no more to do ought for his father or his mother;
¹³ Making the word of God of none effect through your tradition, which ye have delivered: and many such like things do ye.
- If you don’t honour your parents, you CANNOT honour the elderly.
1 Timothy 5 (KJV)
¹ Rebuke not an elder, but intreat him as a father; and the younger men as brethren;
² The elder women as mothers; the younger as sisters, with all purity.
- If you don’t honour your parents, your marriage is doomed to many misfortunes.
PART SEVEN: BONUS
Ecclesiasticus 3:1-16 KJV
Hear me your father, O children, and do thereafter, that ye may be safe.
 For the Lord hath given the father honour over the children, and hath confirmed the authority of the mother over the sons.
 Whoso honoureth his father maketh an atonement for his sins:
 And he that honoureth his mother is as one that layeth up treasure.
 Whoso honoureth his father shall have joy of his own children; and when he maketh his prayer, he shall be heard.
 He that honoureth his father shall have a long life; and he that is obedient unto the Lord shall be a comfort to his mother.
 He that feareth the Lord will honour his father, and will do service unto his parents, as to his masters.
 Honour thy father and mother both in word and deed, that a blessing may come upon thee from them.
 For the blessing of the father establisheth the houses of children; but the curse of the mother rooteth out foundations.
 Glory not in the dishonour of thy father; for thy father’s dishonour is no glory unto thee.
 For the glory of a man is from the honour of his father; and a mother in dishonour is a reproach to the children.
 My son, help thy father in his age, and grieve him not as long as he liveth.
 And if his understanding fail, have patience with him; and despise him not when thou art in thy full strength.
 For the relieving of thy father shall not be forgotten: and instead of sins it shall be added to build thee up.
 In the day of thine affliction it shall be remembered; thy sins also shall melt away, as the ice in the fair warm weather.
 He that forsaketh his father is as a blasphemer; and he that angereth his mother is cursed: of God.
SIGNED: JEREMIAH GYANG.